Send me back?

أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم

I am trying to share an ayah and my reflection on it because it inspired me today. If it is of any benefit then all praise to Allah.  I seek forgivess and guidance for all of us.

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Surah Al-Mumenoon, Verse 99:
حَتَّىٰ إِذَا جَاءَ أَحَدَهُمُ الْمَوْتُ قَالَ رَبِّ ارْجِعُونِ

Until when death overtakes one of them, he says: Send me back, my Lord, send me back;

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I am wondering what will be my mental and physical situation at the time of my death. Death is a scary reality for me right now. But I want to reach a position inshaAllah where I don't fear death anymore. I need to prepare myself for death. This ayah helps me visualize death. What I am going to say at that time? Am I going to say "send me back"? No no I don't want to say that. But how? How should I prepare myself that I would have no desire to back at the time of death. Who would say "send me back"? I believe if I have certain goals that I plan to meet before my death, then I would desire I need to go back to complete those goals. Or may be I might be scared of punishment, so I might want to go back to fix my condition. Or may be I am not ready to face the reality after death.

I pray that Allah make me and all of us prepared before hand. And I pray none of us get into the need to say "send me back". Ameen.

Oh Allah help us die with abrars ابرار righteous ones. Ameen.

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